This Is My Last Post On This Platform

As I write this to you, the Sun is rising over the sea front after three nights of storming. And it feels as though we are entering into a phase of deep repair.

Since leaving the UK, I have experienced all manner of emotions. I have felt the sweetness of a liberation won after decades of being stuck and thwarted; I have felt the grief of leaving behind what I knew and even loved in my own way; I have felt the anger at all I have lost and had to go through to get here; I have felt the despair and brokenness of having to start anew; I have felt a sense of loss as to how I am to even start building again; and I have felt the deep and gripping pangs of fear that come in to erode my confidence and make me feel like what I've done is stupid and irresponsible - that I don't actually have what it takes to be alone in the world with my children.

It's been beautiful and lonely....and necessary.

So many of us are at this turning point of the wheel, where everything we thought we could hold onto must fall all around us so we remember it has always been us in direct communion with Source that has been our only true stability. It's scary and painful....and necessary.

This is my last post on this platform. A year ago, I started this project under grave duress and despair having had my Substack taken from me - one of my main sources of livelihood and creative joy. This platform was birthed and founded upon my despair and loss, and in truth, I never full recovered from once again building something I loved and having it taken from me violently.

I lost more than a platform for my expression that day - I lost my way out of escaping from my family, and the deep harvesting rituals that were literally causing my physical body to shut down. As such, my words and truth may have flowed through here, but without the fullness of my joy and peace as its anchor. I had to pull from a place of depletion, instead of overflow. Once I saw this for what it actually was, I pulled back for my soul to assess the way forward.

It hurts me to have to close this down, but I also know I'm doing so in my own power - not because it has been taken from me. I also know I am destined to build from foundations of peace and deep soul alignment - not duress and desperation. I have so much value to give to the world, but it must come from a place of being valued - first by myself, and then from those I pour into. These are the New Earth templates.

So, I am starting anew in a different space, and every pending subscription will be honored over there - whether you had a few days, a few weeks, or a few months left of your paying subscription, you will be compensated for your investment in me.

I thank each and every one of you that has supported my work and my craft in the past year. And I thank you for your patience with me as I walk through and allow this deep process of rebirth to return me to the world whole, resourced and ready to write and share again from my joy, peace, stability and truth.

If you would like to support my children and I through this transition, I invite you to do so by purchasing my decrees and services, or donating through my ko-fi:
https://ko-fi.com/solarahspeaks

As always, I ask that you only give as led by your soul to do so - not out of any guilt, pressure, or pity. I know things are hard financially for so many right now, so please don't ever feel obligated to give to anyone from your depletion - including me. We are putting an end to those rituals of self-sacrifice.

I thank you for all your love. Thank you for every way you've invested and believed in me. I hope my words have helped you see yourself and the world more clearly. I hope my work has helped you to rise on days when you felt you were on the verge of collapse. I hope my presence in your life has brought true value...and I thank you for all the ways you've done the same for me.

I have every paying member on a list - with the date your subscription began, and how many days, weeks, or months were left. I will be contacting each of you directly via email once I have set myself up in the new space. I will endeavour to make the transition process as smooth and possible - both for you and for myself. All payment through this platform has been taken off pause and disconnected entirely as of November 1st.

So, this is when the curtain falls, the lights go out, and the stage is cleared of the old production and players. This is the death of the false matrix, and all we have been forced to build in survival because of the constant threat against our devinity, life force, and livelihood. No more living in misaligned ways because we fear for our very existence.

Let everything die that must in this time. I'll see you on the "other side."

Asé